The last Dear Dave letter I wrote, I wasn’t sure if I’d ever write again but the sixth anniversary of your Homegoing, today, falls on Sunday. I was torn between the usual Sabbath Keeping post with quotes and Bible verses or writing you so I chose both. Before beginning this letter, I typed “Dear Dave” in the blog search box and re-read those letters and posts I wrote to you and was reminded of C. S. Lewis who said, “Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back nothing is the same?” For almost six years that has, somehow, been true but in the last few months enormous changes have taken place. Over the last six years enormous changes have taken place in me as well.
Thistle Cove Farm relocated from southwest Virginia to southside Virginia and, just like God, He allowed me to see this new farm some three or four years ago, all the while knowing His plans were being worked out and I wasn’t ready. I believe God had to break my heart in order to make me whole (a continual process, eh?) but it’s only when
we’re I’m broken His light can get in. Otherwise I am simply filled with myself with not much no room for Him and me with myopic vision and unable to see the larger view.
(A wiser man than I said, “It is well to remember that the entire population of the universe, with one trifling exception, is composed of others.” (quote found on Kathy’s Laughing Dove blog.))
my our (God and me) new farm came up for sale, one photo showed WVU cut into a hay field and of course I thought, “It’s a sign because that’s where you and Cathy (the love of your youth) went to university. Then, the years dragged on (and on and on and…) and as hope dimmed, I began praying truly for God’s will, not my own, but I continued searching for a new farm in southside VA. (Anyone who says it’s easy to discern God’s will in their life is either delusional or they are praying for what they want. Micah 6:8 tells us God’s will on a broad scale but when it comes to making the smaller personal decisions, I’ve found it to be an extremely difficult, yet faith building, process.)
Earlier this year I re-visited that web sale page and found out the property price had dropped. Additionally, folks who wanted to buy the southwest VA farm were able to get their finances in order and make another offer. Long story short, it all worked out and the dogs, cats, horses and I have moved to a place you would love! Dave, there’s a stocked pond and I can just see you fishing (with or without a hook -smile), or sitting on the deck enjoying life or…ta-da!…running to Walmart just six miles away and with NO mountains to cross!
It’s still Big Sky country but the house is little more than half as small with more than twice the acreage and has open fields, woods, paddocks, barn and a pond. (oh, but I mentioned that…smile.) One of the first things Mom said was, “Dave would really like this place” and she’s right. You would love this new farm and, more importantly, it would please you to know you (through God’s provision) were instrumental in my purchase of same.
The Bible says “God is the same, yesterday, today and forever…” and His plans are continually being worked out for my good and His glory. Dave, it’s so easy to
sometimes often forget life, farm, animals, my plans aren’t about the here and now, it’s all about the here after. God is preparing us for a richer in the way that matters most eternal life with Him, His Son, that great cloud of witnesses, the angels…eternal life in Heaven and all we have to do is believe. But again, you know all that because you made your peace with God five days before you died and are now in Glory! I often sing a song “I stand amazed in the presence of Jesus the Nazarene…” and now Dave, you, like Gabriel, are standing in the presence of God! It fair boggles my mind and I’m having church right here, right now, typing this letter! Glory!
Dearest Dave ~ I am happy, content, enjoying life, this farm, these animals, being closer to family. Because you made your peace with God, I am at peace with no worries or nagging thoughts about your eternal Home. Those decades of asking, “Dave, would you like to go to church with me today?”, of you watching me have morning Bible reading and devotions, all those years of you asking me to pray…I
like to think believe God used me to help lead you to His Son and even though I wasn’t the perfect wife, nor you the perfect husband, we, with God, were perfect for each other. You grew me into the wife you wanted me to be and I am grateful. We grew our friendship into love, our house into a home and I am grateful. I am grateful for a new beginning, a new farm, a new location where people are welcoming me into their lives, their homes, their hearts, their church. I am grateful to God for His plans for my life, plans to prosper me and not harm me, plans giving me hope and a future both now and for all Eternity in Heaven. Perhaps that’s what my grave stone should read: Grateful.
Tu manques a moi